All the blood I gave…

Catastrophe ripped through my flesh [like it was no
thing]
Stitched up on a hospital bed [like it was no
thing]
I spent months letting it heal [like it was no
thing]
Lesson learned from all the blood? uhh
NOTHING

All the sweat I gave…

I was nervous that life would never change [so I ran]
I couldn’t stand being the same [so I ran
away from yesterday] My plan
Was to be something better than me
[good plan]

All the tears I gave…

Failure became
Normal
Failure became
Normal
Failure became normal
Normal became blood
Blood became vision and all I saw was guts
The inner-workings of my life all looked so diseased
Running around and breaking down I broke down to my knees
Where
Crying became

Crying became

Crying became normal
I felt like such a pussy
How could they
Be this way?
Why did they leave me?
I can’t fucking stand this
I want to just end this
I want to fucking blow my head off
And just end this

All the blood I gave…
I want all my blood
All the sweat I gave…
I want all my sweat
All the tears I gave…
I want all my tears

I want it all back
I want to extract my memories onto a dumbdrive
Hook the dumbdrive up to a computer
And print a big stack
Of my embarassmentz
Delete it
Then I want to burn it all
And forget it
So I can feel what it’s like to believe again
So I can feel what it’s like to be clean again