Masterpiece

I’ve been on a steady diet of tits and ass…
And I am getting fat!
I’ve inhaled more anger
Than you could shit a brick at
The house has the advantage
But it’s running out of luck
I’m a loud impassioned megaphone
That doesn’t give a fuck

A repulsive burst of bass from a
Dark, disgusting place
Could spread faster than the world expands
But it’s gunning for your face
I— lifted my leg!
I’m the one who DEALT it!
I shuffled an entire deck and
It’s nothing to mess with!

Oh, disgusting
What a freak
ing mother fucking masterpiece!
Oh, disgusting
What a freak
ing mother fucking masterPLEASE
PLEASE
GIVE ME FREEDOM
PLEASE GIVE ME A CHANCE
I’M JOKING FOR A MOMENT IN A LIFE THAT WILL NOT LAST
So what I’m asking for is everything
Because that’s what we deserve
If I ruled the world
No one would know hurt

Oh, disgusting
What a freak
ing mother fucking master
piece
Oh disgusting
I’M A FUCK
ING MOTHER FREAKING MASTERPIECE!

Mid-Thirties

If I’m lucky I’m mid-aged,
Maybe I’ll hit it big and go a bit longer?

I work double to stay the same
It’ll have to be triple if I want to get stronger

When I look ahead, I see their future
None within, none of it’s mine
I wish I had
a problem with that
But really? This is fine

I still smile back at some history
And piece by piece I pick off the edge
Everyone else can dwell in detail
While I construct a showcase for best

Then when I die
Something will stand
Glistening in my empty space…
A big ol’ metaphorical dick
That’ll stuff itself right in your face

The ? is

Now that I’m
Halfway down the path
And along the way I missed the signs
Am I half dead? Or am I only half alive?

Everything Was Better

Everything was better when you were here
I can’t seem to shake this confusion.  This fear
Cripples my mind – I have no ideas
Everything was better when you were here.

There are too many rules now
I can’t pause for break
Without wasting precious life
One mistake
Could send me back to the fucking stone age
Locked behind bars – the law is my fate
But when free, the law’s my fate anyway
I cannot control my life
It’s strange
How strangers wrote the rules
Without me
And yet I just accept the values
Of people who lived when I wasn’t born
Much less learned
Much less aware of the problems that burn
And create this confused and luminous fear

Everything was better when you were here